Patricia Danielle

i went to the grocery store last night and right next door to the grocery store was a new age store. and right next to that was ‘kingdom bookstore’.

unless the word ‘kingdom’ is used at church….or in a church song….or a jay-z song.
other than that, it just makes my skin crawl.

church on sunday mornings, salads, my apt in pasadena, friends with new babies, my new franklin covey day-planner, taking only 1/2 of the cycle class, the protable heather that makes my apt livable, sports talk radio, not being obsessed with sports, ketchup. holiday marshamallows, talking it out with brian, yellow, driving stick, carpooling, lunch with my teams, knowing that all this work madness will soon come to an end, spending every available waking second with brian, new pictures from vegas, diet 7up, target, joan of arcadia, finally getting a few minutes to blog, hot chocolate, having both lap-tops, all my i-pod playlists, lists, going to bed way too early, having internet access outside of work, my want-to-be uggs, staying warm, laundry at the apt where you can do 4 loads at a time, bailey, my new wireless mouse, colors, laughing, remembering lots of fun times, my new white teddy bear ‘Low’, sharing, tasting candy again, finally sticking up for myself, crackers and hummus, vacationing while watching someones home, planning the next trip, making long term plans, sleeping in, goldleaf perfume, and all the silly/funny/baby talk. 

well. i may be one of the only people EVER that lasted the whole year with my new year’s resolution.
i made it one whole year without ketchup.
but, i did not make it one whole year and one day.

brian and i had french fries with dinner on jan 1.
we also had yummy ketchup as a side!

oh and for dessert i had a couple of reese’s mini-cups. because the ‘no candy from nov 1st- dec 31st’ was also up on new year’s.

welcome to 2008!

shortly….

ive only gotten myself in trouble with my blog 2 times before. once with jaren and once with kenny. yesterday was the 3rd. i know public means public….i just didnt ever think that the strangers i thought may be reading, may actually be strangers i know. if i would have, i woulndt have posted the last post. and i would have eplained each friend in detail as i went along so that boys with the same names wouldnt be confused.

but the blog world is great. i learned how to make my whole blog private, and how to make individual posts private.

welcome to the new private public version of myself.

im on here to remind myself that i am alive. i know that when i look back on this blog in years to come, i will wonder what i was doing during all the huge blocks of days when i didnt post, and ill wonder where i was and what i was doing. it just so happens that when i have nothing going on, and lots of free time, i post all the time, however, when there is loads and loads going on, i dont even have one second during the day to get on here. really, during the busy crazy times i should be posting.

pretty much everything is different than that last time i updated this to refelct life at the current moment. i have a new job, a new place to live, in a new city, and a new boyfriend. things are just really different. all at once. but things are fantastic. i feed off of energy and pressure to complete as many things possible in as little amount of time possible. right now, im in the height of that. ive been working evtra hours each day and still have loads left to do the moment I walk in each morning. i have 7 new staff members, all of whom im am learning more and more about. oh, and i have a new boss. with whom i work closely.

im working  in pasadena and ontario. about an hour commute between the two, during which i am usually on the phone the whole way, working.

gina, one of my very best friends, got married in italy last month. my parents celebrated their 30th wedding anniversary last month. my brothers wife had baby landon last month. grandma turned 76 last month. brian and i decided to be a couple last month. i spent a week in italy last month.

on the flip side of everything being just as i want it, because we all know i like my life to be intense, i find it amazing that god’s love for me endures. his mercy is new every morning. he knows exactly where i am in every aspect of my life. he knows the timeline. he knows my choices and my indecisiveness. he knows my heart. its so easy to live life knowing this. through faith in him who is able to do above all that i can think or ask. his love is amazing to me. and i am so thankful for him and for knowing him. and for the security i know in him.

whats more….im so thankful to experience him in my new relationship with brian. i love brians heart for the creator. i love his willingness to learn and to ask. i love that hs is open for god to talk to him through so many different things and people. i love that brian has been able to see god work in so many things in his life and in mine through the last four months. its a real testament that his word is true, as he assures us that those who seel him will find him. i love that me and my parents and shannon and caroline and jeff have all been used as channels for brian’s seeking.

“thank you god for your love. thank you for your son. thank you for the peace and joy that i live in each day because you are my savior and my friend. help me to love more and forgive easily. you are all that i need. thank you for placing people in my life whom i can love and who love me. i love you.”

i think walmart is a weird place to stand outside of and give away kittens for free.

dogs too.

bran cereal, taking pictures, gold, propel packets to add to water, purpose driven life, texting, bingo at work, my laptop, yellow highlighters, pretzles, diet coke zero, sleeping, skittles, the beach, the sun, speaker phone on my cell, the end of ‘the year of the wedding’, holding hands, finding lost things, 50/50 bar ice cream, someone who easily says ‘yes’,  smiling, moving out, filling up my days, my jump rope circut, being cared for, not having to always make the decision, being part of the director’s team….