im on here to remind myself that i am alive. i know that when i look back on this blog in years to come, i will wonder what i was doing during all the huge blocks of days when i didnt post, and ill wonder where i was and what i was doing. it just so happens that when i have nothing going on, and lots of free time, i post all the time, however, when there is loads and loads going on, i dont even have one second during the day to get on here. really, during the busy crazy times i should be posting.
pretty much everything is different than that last time i updated this to refelct life at the current moment. i have a new job, a new place to live, in a new city, and a new boyfriend. things are just really different. all at once. but things are fantastic. i feed off of energy and pressure to complete as many things possible in as little amount of time possible. right now, im in the height of that. ive been working evtra hours each day and still have loads left to do the moment I walk in each morning. i have 7 new staff members, all of whom im am learning more and more about. oh, and i have a new boss. with whom i work closely.
im working in pasadena and ontario. about an hour commute between the two, during which i am usually on the phone the whole way, working.
gina, one of my very best friends, got married in italy last month. my parents celebrated their 30th wedding anniversary last month. my brothers wife had baby landon last month. grandma turned 76 last month. brian and i decided to be a couple last month. i spent a week in italy last month.
on the flip side of everything being just as i want it, because we all know i like my life to be intense, i find it amazing that god’s love for me endures. his mercy is new every morning. he knows exactly where i am in every aspect of my life. he knows the timeline. he knows my choices and my indecisiveness. he knows my heart. its so easy to live life knowing this. through faith in him who is able to do above all that i can think or ask. his love is amazing to me. and i am so thankful for him and for knowing him. and for the security i know in him.
whats more….im so thankful to experience him in my new relationship with brian. i love brians heart for the creator. i love his willingness to learn and to ask. i love that hs is open for god to talk to him through so many different things and people. i love that brian has been able to see god work in so many things in his life and in mine through the last four months. its a real testament that his word is true, as he assures us that those who seel him will find him. i love that me and my parents and shannon and caroline and jeff have all been used as channels for brian’s seeking.
“thank you god for your love. thank you for your son. thank you for the peace and joy that i live in each day because you are my savior and my friend. help me to love more and forgive easily. you are all that i need. thank you for placing people in my life whom i can love and who love me. i love you.”
