into the swing
me here, sitting at school. the new way that AOL is presenting mail is, for some reason, not meshing with the japanese system at school, so i am unable to get my email at school. not that i will be missing much, but there is always the chance that kid rock could see my professed obsession with him in my blog and then email me to tell me he has the exact same fascination with me…..then, who knows, happy ever after? right! him with his 15 year old son and me the 25 year old mother of a teenager. no thanks.
something like this came up in a conversation with gina yesterday, turns out a guy i dated in high school, who she then dated some time later, is now dating someone who has an 11 yr old child. gina clearly stated that she is not looking for that and that dating someone with a kid is too much baggage for her. im not sure how i feel about that. i think it was really hard for my mom and for my brothers to be involved in “baggage” but shouldnt love conquer all? i would say it did with my parents. then there is another friend who told me that he wouldnt date someone who was divorced. why? would i? i dont know. i suppose.
being in india, and seeing SO many people, most of them REALLY dirty…as in DIRT dirty…., made me realize just how many people there are out there. i did see some really beautiful people, and even a few people who became more and more attractive to me as i spent more time with them (weird how that happens). being among so many people also made me think that, maybe my line of thinking that there are specific people in your life who you are supposed to meet, and as you are walk in god’s perfect will for your life, you meet others who are doing the same……maybe it’s a lot more random-happenstance than that. again, i dont know.
what i do know is that i always thought that i would end up married to a white guy. i never really thought any different. and no, im not planning on going on some “find a racially-diverse husband” web-site looking for someone of indian or egyptian backgrounds, i just think that there are a lot more possibilities than i had ever allowed thought about before and it opens up a whole world of people….
